kledeq

6 January 2012

2012-01-06T12:45:00.002+08:00

2011 has past and now is already 2012.

I don't plan what's I'm going to do.

I just go with the flow.

29 November 2011

2011-11-29T16:25:00.002+08:00

I went back early from work. Meeting the most loveliest person in my life later. Now waiting for her. Killing time somewhere. I'm so sleepy. My life change when I started working here. Met someone special. Nothing can be more meaningful. (Actually I'm sleepy and don't even know what the hell I'm writing. So I think I better stop here before all the nonsense comes out). Ciaosssss........

27 September 2011

2011-09-27T13:10:00.004+08:00

The days past so fast nowadays.

Too little time to spend with you.

But I hope with that little time is precious and memorable for u.

I wish I could spend more time with you.

I wish that I have the time in my hands so that I could turn back the clock and spend more time with you.

I love you dear.

You completed my life.

You bring meanings into my life.

You gave me a responsibility.

You gave me light.

You give me everything that I could never wish for.

I haven't thank you and I don't know how too.

Please don't leave me just yet.

I want to thank you and just be in your arms.

Feeling your warmth.

I'm comfortable being with you.

Lets just follow the flow and takes us wherever it leads us.

Thank you so much for everything.

17 October 2010

2010-11-17T15:57:00.003+08:00

I can still feel the pain when the heart was broken by someone you love with all your heart. Sometimes I just don't understand how does it works. For me its enough for me and my partner to know but for some when the both of you know why keep it a secret. Then it will get complicated and things will go haywire. Sometimes I want to forget about it but I just can't the feeling is still there and it can't seem to go when it is already so long ago. Till that I'm afraid to fall in love again. But whatever it is I still love the person that I love before.

What people say about love is true. Sometimes its easy and sometimes its hard. There are always complication in every way. Sometimes I just want things to be easy. But what can I do I'm hopeless. I sucks in relationship. I'll just have to keep trying my best.

14 May 2010

2010-05-14T10:43:00.002+08:00

"You are free to decide what's best for your life"

"So you dont care and love me anymore?"

???????????????????????????????????????????????????

After all this while I though you left me for good and forget about me but it seems it didnt and I dont know why. Why did you change your mind? Your confused and confusing! But I couldnt care less as long you are happy with what you decide.

YOU KNOW YOU LOVE ME, I KNOW YOU CARE!

14 May 2010

2010-05-14T10:30:00.002+08:00

You know you love me, I know you care
Just shout whenever, And I'll be there
You want my love, You want my heart
And we will never ever-ever be apart

Are we an item? Girl quit playing
"We're just friends"
What are you sayin?
said theres another and looked right in my eyes
My first love broke my heart for the first time,

And I was like
Baby, baby, baby ooh
Like baby, baby, baby noo
Like baby, baby, baby ooh
Thought you'd always be mine, mine

Baby, baby, baby oohh
Like baby, baby, baby noo
Like baby, baby, baby ohh
Thought you'd always be mine, mine

For you,i would have done what ever
And I just cant believe we ain't together
And I wanna play it cool, But I'm losing you
I'll buy you anything, ill buy you any ring
And I'm in pieces, Baby fix me
and just shake me til' you wake me from this bad dream

I'm going down, down, down, down
And I just can't believe, my first love won't be around

And I'm like,
Baby, baby, baby oooh
Like baby, baby, baby noo
Like baby, baby, baby ooh
Thought you'd always be mine, mine

Baby, baby, baby oooh
Like baby, baby, baby noo
Like baby, baby, baby ooh
Thought you'd always be mine, mine

When I was thirteen, I had my first love
There was nobody that compared to my baby
And nobody came between us
that could ever come above
She had me going crazy
Oh I was starstruck
She woke me up daily
Don't need no Starbucks
She make my heart pound
and skip a beat when I see her in the street
and, At school, on the playground
But I really wanna see her on a weekend
She knows she got me dazing
Cuz she was so amazing
And now, my heart is breaking
But I just keep on saying

Baby, baby, baby ohh
Like baby, baby, baby noo
Like baby, baby, baby ohh
Thought you'd always be mine, mine

Baby, baby, baby ooh
Like baby, baby, baby noo
Like baby, baby, baby oooh
Thought you'd always be mine. mine

5 November 2009

2009-11-05T22:27:00.002+08:00

So many things has happen lately...

My mind is still shock with the death of my grandmother Fatimah Binte Kassim passed away on 4/11/09 at 2038...last month my friend fly off to Australia and continue with her studies...

Life have to go on no matter what...I can still visit my friend in Australia and my Grandmother at her grave...Semoga Allah SWT ampunkan dosa-dosa Nenek. Senangkanlah dia menjawab soalan-soalan kubur. Aku sedekahkan Al-Fatihah ke atas kuburnya. Amin Ya Rabbalalamin.

20 June 2009

2009-06-20T13:00:00.003+08:00

YOU GUYS ARE JUST SO CHILDISH!!

I TRIED TO UNDERSTAND YOU GUYS BUT SOMETIMES YOU GUYS ARE JUST IRRITATING AND UNPREDICTABLE!! YOU GUYS ARE JUST THINKING ABOUT YOURSELVES RATHER THAN THE PEOPLE AROUND YOU!!

IM STRESSED UP!!

DAH TAHU MASING-MASING SALAH PANDAI CARIK MUKA AKU!! DORANG INGATKAN MUKA AKU NI APA BONEKA!! SUKA MAIN TAK SUKA BUANG!! DUA-DUA SAMA JE LAH TAKDE BEZA!!

KERAS KEPALA, SENSITIVE SEMUA LAH!!!! BINGIT!!!! DONT VENT YOUR ANGER ON ME!!

DAH PUAS HATILAH BILA DAH LEPASKAN GERAM DENGAN AKU!!

ARGHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

JUST SHUT UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

20 June 2009

2009-06-20T12:43:00.002+08:00

Dorang yang gaduh aku jugak yang kena..bagos lah macam gitu..kirakan aku punca segalanya..dorang dua yang tak leh mengalah aku yang jadi mangsa..

WHAT THE FUCKING HELL LAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

DO SOME SOUL SEARCHING LAH INSTEAD OF BLAMING ME FOR EVERYTHING!!! FED-UP SIA!!!

JANGAN NAK BUAT BAIK DENGAN AKU!!

I'M SICK AND TIRED OF ALL THIS!! I JUST WANT TO RUN AWAY FROM EVERYTHING AND DO MY OWN STUFF!! THEY CAN DO THEIR OWN THINGS ANYWHERE AND ANYTIME THEY LIKE SO CAN I!! THEY CAN RUN AWAY AND JUST GO OFF ANYTIME THEY LIKE SO CAN I!!

CAN YOU GUYS JUST COOL OFF??

18 June 2009

2009-06-18T18:18:00.003+08:00

Jangan nak kurangajar dengan aku..aku diam-diam jangan nak pijak kepala aku..jangan sampai aku kurangajar dengan kau baru kau nak respect aku nak bebual baik-baik dengan aku..selagi aku boleh sabar aku sabar jangan sampai aku tinggi suara dengan kau..kalau marah, marah dengan satu orang je..jangan nak babitkan orang lain..jangan sampai aku hilang sabar kau memang tak suka..

2 June 2009

2009-06-02T08:50:00.002+08:00

I have finish my WSQ Course so relief..Today Im going to collect my uniform and know my deployment where I am posted too..

I'm just so happy for myself..hehe..I was thinking of giving up with the course..But the course just need some understanding..when you understand the course its easy for you to do it..Lucky I didn't give up..

Now I'm going to work hard and do myself some good..Maybe I want to continue back my studies and I think its the right time to do it..

But whatever it is its still in planning..I've been saying that I want to continue back my studies for so long but I didnt do it..

So hopefully this is the right time..

7 May 2009

2009-05-07T23:24:00.001+08:00

I
MISS
YOU
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

25 April 2009

2009-04-17T13:03:00.004+08:00

On 31 March 2009 I went for interview at Aetos for Protection Officer..On the 4 April 2009 I went for check-up..Then on the 13 April 2009 I called up the HR of Aetos and they said that my application have been cleared..So they asked me to call this particular person for the courses that I have to attend..So I called the person two days after that on the 15 April 2009..The person say that he will get back to me the next day..The next day I called him again and he said that I will start my training on the first week of May and he will SMS me the location etc etc..So I waited for about a week and I called him again yesterday 24 April 2009 and he told me to come down for briefing at Old Police Academy..So I came down and told me that the training will be postpone to the 25 May 2009 because there's only 3 people going for the training..They need at least 4 people..So there's this ex-colleague and friend of mine we used to work together in Budget Terminal only different team as she wanted to joing together with me..So I told the person that my friend wanted to join..The person told me to tell my friend to come on Tuesday afternoon..After talking I called my friend and told her to come for interview on Tuesday..She was really glad..I'm glad too as I get to work with her again..

We'll see how it goes about..As for my current part-time job..My boss and manager haven't come back from Cambodia yet..I don't know why..But I'll work there till my training starts..I can't wait to start my training..

Alhamdulillah..Ya Allah aku bersyukur terhadapmu..Berkatilah kerjaku ini..Aku sudah 23 tahun Ya Allah dan aku ingin kerja ini berkekalan hingga bila-bila Ya Allah..Aku sudah serik tukar-tukar kerja Ya Allah..Aku ingin jadi manusia yang lebih berguna..Ya Rabala'lamin

24 March 2009

2009-03-24T11:47:00.002+08:00

I'M SICK!!!!

I don't know why my body so sensitive nowadays..if its too hot throat pain..if too cold chest pain and I start to cough..I went to the hospital yesterday..I have difficulties breathing when I cough or having flu..the doctor told me to go for x-ray..everything was okay I think I just a normal cough..But Im scared too if I get infected again..Thankfully everything was alright..the doctor gave me cough medicine and dissolving phlegm pill..Im gone after taking the medicine..I can't wake up this morning..My head feel like bursting..But I still come to work..Luckily I'm working in office..If not I don't know how I survive..But before this also I did survive..Medicine are nothing to me..My body full of them..Hahax..

I'm sleepy right now after eating medicine..Ciao

20 March 2009

2009-03-20T10:57:00.002+08:00

Been sometime since I wrote my last blog..

My life been crazy..job hunting..Got a job at Toy 'R' Us for 2 days as they want people for stock taking..after that I got a job at 7-11 part-time..didnt feel comfortable with the job so I quit after 3 days..I didnt get pay..then I got job at Golden Village Vivocity as kitchen helper..I couldnt catch with the pace they are going..I quit after 3 days also but I've been paid..then I search in the newspaper and applied for this door-to-door flyer distributor..Its tiring but its fun and enjoying..You don't have to deal with people..But have to deal with barking dogs..Its fine with me..I can exercise at the same time..Test my stamina..I feel good after doing it..Then my cousin go and search for the same thing in the website..she called and sms the numbers then one of them called her back..so she ask me to come along with her to the place..I find they are paying more..So I join her also..She back soon after as she couldnt stand the long journey and mrt and bus fare..Then when I think back its true..So I so called quit..But I still stayed on with the other door-to-door flyer distributor..Then now I found a job at SWM Company part-time..They want to gather statistics. of a casino.Really interesting job..But I dont know how long they want me to do this statistics..But Im slacking in the office..playing game and doing statistics..Hopefully I dont go fat by sitting in the office..I dont intent to stay long here..As long as they want me I'll stay..

Doing some thinking..I thought of going back to my previous job as a Protection Officer..Still not sure yet..still thinking..I feel that this Protection Officer job can bring good money..But I still have some more consideration I have to consider..

I just leave it to ALLAH...If that is where my rezeki is then it is..If its not its not..

21 February 2009

2009-02-21T10:37:00.002+08:00

A simple girl...
Who wants to lead a simple life...
Loved by her parents...
Good grades in school...
9-5 job...
Falls in love
Be in love...
Married...
Pregnant...
Children...
Complete family...
Happily ever after.........

But all that didn't happen to her...Thats what I saw deep down inside her...She didn't want to go through all this hardship...But that is what life has state for her...I really wish to help her...But I don't know how...I'm confused...

27 January 2009

2009-01-27T22:56:00.000+08:00

FAUZIAH LATIFF
MENJAUH DIRI

KAU LAH YANG MENYANGKA KITA HIDUP BAHAGIA
TETAPI SEBENARNYA PAHIT KU RASAKAN
MEMANG DAHULUKU BAHAGIA
TETAPI SEMUANYA DAH BERUBAH
BILA KAU TIADA LAGI
SETIA KEPADAKU

KASIH SAYANG KU PADAMU TIDAK KAU HARGAI
SEOLAH AKU TIDAK LAGI KAU PEDULIKAN
APALAH ERTI KESETIAAN JIKA KAU TAK PEDULIKAN KU
SEHINGGA KAU TIADA MASA UNTUKKU

WALAUPUN KU CUBA MEMPERTAHANKAN
AGAR CINTA KITA BERTERUSAN
TETAPI ENGKAU MASIH MENYAKITIKU SESUKAMU
DAN BIARLAH KU MENJAUHKAN DIRI
AGAR TIDAK MENGANGGU KEBAHAGIAANMU
BERSAMA INSAN BARU YANG MEMISAHKAN CINTAKU

SIAPA YANG MENYAGKA KITA HIDUP BAHAGIA
TETAPI SEBANARNYA PAHIT KU RASAKAN
MEMANG DAHULUKU BAHAGIA
TETAPI SEMUANYA DAH BERUBAH
BILA KAU TIADA LAGI
SETIA KEPADAKU

27 January 2009

2009-01-27T22:54:00.000+08:00

Glenn Fredly
Sekali Ini Saja

Bersamamu ku lewati
Lebih dari seribu malam
Bersamamu yang ku mahu
Namun kenyataannya tak sejalan

Tuhan bila masih ku diberi kesempatan
Izinkan aku untuk mencintanya
Namun bila waktu ku telah habis dengannya
Biar cinta hidup sekali ini saja

Bersamamu ku lewati
Lebih dari seribu malam
Bersamamu yang ku mahu
Namun kenyataannya tak sejalan

Tuhan bila masih ku diberi kesempatan
Izinkan aku untuk mencintanya
Namun bila waktu ku telah habis dengannya
Biar cinta hidup sekali ini saja

Tak sanggup bila harus jujur
Hidup tanpa hembusan nafasnya

Tuhan bila waktu dapat ku putar kembali
Sekali lagi untuk mencintanya
Namun bila waktu ku telah habis dengannya
Biarkan cinta ini
Biarkan cinta ini
Hidup untuk sekali ini saja

13 January 2009

2009-01-13T23:25:00.002+08:00

There's problem with uploading the videos here..never mind..

On the 6 January 2009 Toy 'R' Us had a stock take so I took part in it..I report in at 1915hrs at Paragon..It was a really nice experience..We finish at 130hrs..I reached home at 200hrs..

Then on the 8 January 2009 I accepted a job at 7-11 at Bedok North, Blk 510. I quitted the job after 3 days. I don't feel comfortable. I'm used to work in big groups suddenly I get to work in small group I feel out of place. I know I got shortage cash of $9.50. I did tell the manager that if he wants me to pay for it I will. But he didn't say anything. So I don't care. And some more this job involves alot of cash which I'm really particular about. I'm really fobia of cash. But I'm glad that I quitted the job before I done some more damaged.

Now I want to find a really good job with a future maybe. I'm really praying and finding hard.

"Ya Allah tolong lah hambamu ini mencari kerja yang menjamin masa depan. Engkaulah yang maha pengampun lagi maha pengasih. Kuatkan semangat hambamu ini Ya Allah untuk mengharungi kehidupan ini yang penuh onak dan duri. Hambamu ini ingin mencapai cita-cita yang tinggi dan ingin membahagiakan keluargaku dan juga semua yang aku sayangi. Amin."

11 December 2008

2008-12-11T00:42:00.002+08:00

I came back from holiday last 5 December...Came back from holiday my mum held a "Doa Selamat" on the 8 December which is Hari Raya Haji...So it was quite a tight week...But it was fun...I got flu at the beginning, end and until now...I'm so fed-up...I have some videos of the trip...But i haven't really get down and do it...I'll update the videos soon...Inspirasi Sejati...

24 November 2008

2008-11-23T23:45:00.003+08:00

Avenged Sevenfold
Dear God

A lonely road cross another cold state line
Miles away from those I love
Purpose hard to find
While I recall all the words you spoke to me
Can't help but wish that
I was there back where I love to be
Oh yeah

Dear God
The only thing I asked of you
Is to hold her when I'm not around
When I'm much to far away
We all need the person who can be true to you
But I left her when I found her
And now I'd wished I'd stay
Cuz I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again
Oh no...Once again

There's nothing here for me
On this barren road
Cuz there's no one here
While the city sleeps
And all the shops are closed
Can't help but think of the times I had with you
Pictures and some memories
Will have to help me through
Oh yeah

While some search
Never finding a way
Before long
They waste away
I found you
Something told me stay
I gave in to selfish ways
And how I miss someone to hold
When hope begins to fade
A lonely road crossed another cold state line
Miles away from those I love
Purpose hard to find

4 November 2008

2008-11-04T16:10:00.002+08:00

Today my mum found out that I smoke...And she gave me one hell of a speech...I just kept quiet...She smell smoke when I come out of the bathroom...And there is this stupid day that my lighter drop in front of her after my bath...I knew she saw it...But she didnt say anything...I knew from her face that she was sad and wanted to tell me something...she was different after that incident happen...she told me that my behaviour change after I work in Aetos...I know I did change...I mean somehow or somewhat you need to have a change in yourself at a point of time...Working life is totally different from school life...School you have to worry about your exams...Work you have to worry about your pay...Sometimes the management sucks...They are stabbing their employees back...And all sorts of things...We have our own rights and we should stand up for it...

So the moral of the story is I lied to my mum...She wants to sell this laptop and my handphone because the handphone is not mine...I don't know if she really will do it...But I think she would...She the woman of her words...So before she sell this laptop and my handphone I have to transfer my files to my desktop computer...

I don't know if I should say sorry to her...I think now I know what's the meaning of sorry...Once you say sorry to someone you better mean it and better not do it ever again...If you think that you are going to do it again might as well don't say it...As for me I would not want to say sorry to her because I feel and think that I will do it again...Its not that I'm not being remorseful but not everybody is perfect...Sorry is a big word...

She did say that she wanted to bring me to Umrah...I didnt give any answer...She said that I started back smoking because she wanted to bring me to Umrah...I didnt cross my mind at all...I started back smoking because I just feel like smoking again thats all...She said that I will smoke then I will get sick so I dont need to go Umrah with her...In my heart was like what the heck is she thinking...That kind of thinking didnt cross my mind at all...She also said that she was just joking on bringing me to Umrah...

I think she say all those things just to test me...Some of the things she said was not true...Didnt cross my mind at all...Most of it was true...She wants me to open up to her and tell her what's my problem, what's on my mind etc...Somethings you can share with your parents somethings you dont...Its not that you're keeping them in the dark...Because you know they wont understand and you know how they will react...We know they have gone through alot of things in life...When we are born they will teach us how to deal with it...But how we want our lives to be its how we decide...

I think thats all I have to say...

14 October 2008

2008-10-14T21:38:00.002+08:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA!!!

I should say this on the 1st october 2008 but was too busy...haha

I want to write about so many things...

Firstly...

I'm pissed off with this particular person...owe me money since june till now have not pay back...month of june when I asked to pay she gave all kinds of reasons...then I was warded...she buat bodoh only till now...recently I called her and asked her she still giving me reasons...give all kinds of excuses...the other day I SMS her and told her that I'm frustrated and I'm in need of the money then she told me that on the 25th she will pay me...I said okay...on the 25th I will SMS her again...but I won't SMS her on the 25th itself...I will SMS her earlier...I'll make sure she pay back my money...I mean I lend you money you as a borrower should have the initiative to actually know that you have borrow money from me and pay me back as soon as possible...I keep quiet she also keep quiet...what the heck man!!!...In total I have 5 people who owe me money...In total the 5 of them owe me $670...I don't need to work also can...haha...

Now I want to write about "My Heart" story...

Its been 2 months 4 days since the I know what...until now when I see her pictures or hears her name from my friends my heart beats very fast...I still have the 50/50 feelings for her...that means I still love her and I somehow like don't care about her...let me interpret the "I somehow like don't care about her"...since the ending of the fasting month coming to Hari Raya...I didn't about her that much as before...because I was busy with the Hari Raya thing and was enjoying myself...but in the mist of busyness I do still think about her,miss her and love her...I don't know why...

Illness and Goals...

Now that I'm feeling much much more better than before...I'm having my check-up this thursday, 16 October 2008...I don't know what the doctors going to do...I'm gaining weight...and my body now is coming back to the usual shape...I really thank ALLAH, my family and friends for encouraging me, giving me all the support and not being scared of me...and also to myself for not giving up and still going strong even with a break-up in stored...I have a lot of things that I want to do...first up my goals...I want to find a job,get a motorcycle and car licence,go back to school and also go to the gym...I have been wanting to start school back but it failed...I'm still thinking about what I want to do first...

I think I've said enough...

2008-09-18T00:04:00.001+08:00

The worst thing about getting your heart broken
Is going to sleep and knowing your going wake up with the same broken heart...

2008-09-18T00:00:00.002+08:00

The words you said to me made me cry
I felt like I wanted to die
I just wanted to give up, quit and not even try
My hearts grow cold each passing day
The love I felt for everyone has gone away
The words Love and Hope I will no longer say
This is last time you will hurt me
I am going to be who I want to be
I am going to be what I want to just wait and see...

2008-09-17T23:56:00.002+08:00

They say time will eventually heals a broken heart
But my question is
What heals the time you spent recovering from a broken heart?

2008-09-17T23:54:00.001+08:00

Luka ditangan boleh dilihat
Dan boleh ditampal plaster
Luka dihati tiada siapa yang tahu
Adakah masih ada penawar untuk mengubatinya?

2008-09-17T23:51:00.001+08:00

I walk with my shadow
I live with a broken dream
I smile hiding away my fears
I laugh to bury my tears
I cry to hide away my scars
I die a little more everytime I breathe...

2008-09-17T23:48:00.001+08:00

Cinta setakat rasa
Sayang setakat rindu
Mimpi setakat bayangan
Tapi hanya cinta sejati hingga ke syurga...

1 month 7 days

2008-09-17T23:40:00.003+08:00

I treasured you like a precious stone
Kept you in my heart alone
I have done everything
But still you can't see
That my love for you will always be

I always ask myself why
I am puzzled and I don't know why
I have tried to forget you but I can't
You are always on my mind and heart

Every night I think of you
Wondering why you can't love me too
I'm hoping that someday you will realise
That my love for you was true

I am so much hurt
But there is one thing I will always do
Is to wait and be next to you....

1 MONTH 1 DAY.........

2008-09-11T23:18:00.002+08:00

DUHAI KEKASIH KU RINDU PADAMU
JANGAN KAU NIAYA AKU CINTAKU KASIHANLAH
ALANGKAH SEDIHNYA HATIKU
DUKA MELIPUTI KALBUKU
KEKASIH DIHATI SUDAH JEMU PADAKU
TAPI TETAPKU TUNGGU
KEKASIH YANG LAIN DITEMU
HATIKU BERDARAH DAN PILU
NAMUN BETAPA AKU MERAYU PADAMU KASIH
KEMBALILAH PADAKU
TAPI TAK MENGAPA KU DERITA
NANTI TIBA MASA KAU KAN RASA
BETAPA HEBATNYA HATI LUKA KECEWA
GAGAL DALAM BERCINTA

plz come back.....

2008-08-13T21:44:00.002+08:00

I STILL WANT HER IN MY LIFE!!!

I STILL WANT TO LOVE HER!!!

I STILL WANT TO HUG HER!!!

I STILL WANT HER BY MY SIDE!!!

I LOVE U SHARMILA!!!

I FEEL SO WEAK WITHOUT HER!!!

I FEEL SO LOST NOT TALKING TO HER!!!

BUT I KNOW SHE WONT COME BACK TO ME NO MATTER WHATEVER I SAY...

I KNOW SHE IS DOING THIS FOR THE BETTER...

I KNOW I HAVE TO LOSE HER ONE DAY...

BUT I NEED HER BY MY SIDE RIGHT NOW...

4 August 2008

2008-08-04T14:18:00.002+08:00

Let me start by saying that I thank GOD every night since I found you. You are my sun, my moon and my whole universe. I love to hear you laugh, see you smile and watch you eat.

I hate being far from you but I never thought that someone could love me like you do. I love you more than words could ever express.

From time to time I asked myself why did I chose you? What is so special about you? Well the reason is simple. I chose you because you are YOU!!! You are kind, caring, compassionate, loving and incredibly sexy.

You make my heart beat faster each time I see you, and you give me butterflies when you asked me to kiss you. You are irresistable to me and I don't know how anyone could let you go. I know I never will.

You are the one I want to hold for the rest of my life. I pray that you will carry my love for you in your heart. I look forward to the day when we can be together again.

18 July 2008

2008-07-18T23:02:00.002+08:00

I have found you but seems I have lost myself. I want to tell you then how do I tell? In any language that is known. I can't find the words alone to tell you what you mean to me.

When I am with you, I feel alive. You bring me happiness. You bring to me a love I have never known before. Without you in my life I feel empty. You have touched my heart in many ways. I love being with you.

Everyday when I wake up I will think of you. I will ask myself what are you doing? Have you eaten? Did you sleep well? Etc. I just can't stop thinking of you.

You voice soothes me. I could sit here and try to tell you just how I feel, but I can't find the words other than I am delighted we met and have gotten together after all we have gone through.

I realize that I have neglected you. Not spending time with you. I feel so bad and guilty. Sometimes I feel that I don't qualify to be yours. I don't know what to do. I am really sorry for my doing and I will try my best to make it up to you.

I want to tell you that the love I have for you have no ending. My love is a love that is strong and enduring and will stand the test of time. I truly feel blessed that you have become a part of my life and I can't wait for the day that we can live together. I want to hug and kiss you when I lie next to you. I want to wake up in the morning and see your beautiful smile. I want to share your joys and sorrows. I want to be your everything because you are everything to me.

I promise to always love you and always hold you in my heart. I will always be here for you when you need me. I will love you matter what life brings us. You are my soulmate and my life partner.

27 June 2008

2008-06-27T15:47:00.003+08:00

I was admitted at CGH because doctor confirm that I got Tuberculosis from 16-23 June 2008...

Yesterday I went for check-up at 144 Moulmein Road...Its near Tan Tock Seng Hospital...My parents went for check-up because they want to check whether they have been infected by TB...Today my parents bring my two other siblings for the check...

After they have reached home I told my mum that my dad keep knocking my door to go for my medicine at polyclinic...I show the action how did he knock my door...He came out from the kitchen and he said "Ayah nampak apa kau buat. Ayah ketuk-ketuk asal kau tak bukak pintu."...I replied that I was sleeping...He said "Asal kau tak nak ayah ikut pergi poly?Aku bukan bapak kau lagi?Kau sakit semua kena pergi check-up tau."...then he walk off...while he was saying all that I just make myself deaf but I'm listening...

He didnt know that his words really hurt me...Did I ask for this illness?It came by itself...Partly its my fault...When I was coughing I didnt go to the doctor quickly...Okay fine...But I didnt know where,when and how this illness get to me...You can't blame me for everything...If you were to get sick you will get sick...Isn't it right?...He's just not happy that I don't allow him to go polyclinic with him...But its just a small matter...When I reach there also I just have to eat medicine in front of the nurse that's all...What else he want to know?...What is it that he's not happy?Why with my brother he don't dare to say anything?I think I want to do what my brother is doing to my father...Let him learn a lesson...My father doesn't have to say all that...

Yesterday's check-up I don't allow him to follow also...But he insist on following...Okay fine...We took cab to go to the place...Upon paying he complaint that the cab fare is expensive...I told my mum "Who asked him to follow?Who asked him to pay for the cab fare?"...My mum just smile...

Before this also my father doesn't even bother about me...Now after I get this illness then he want to bother about me...Why now?Why not before?I know what I want to do to him...

That's all folks...

6 May 2008

2008-05-06T21:01:00.002+08:00

LOVE EQUALS TO LUST?

I don't believe that but somehow or somewhat I find it quite true...

LOVE IS FREEDOM?

This I totally say it's true...

Love is such a beautiful feeling...It's the most unexplainable feeling...It just keep you thinking about the one that you really love you want that person for the whole of your life until your last breath...There's also ups and downs in love and its testing you everytime...Then there's the magical words of love...I Love You, I Miss You, Can't live without you, Need you by my side always etc...It also can be complicated...Hard to understand the other party...It's up to individual how they explain love...

Thats all folks...!!!

23 April 2008

2008-04-23T23:09:00.002+08:00

VAGETOZ
BETAPA AKU MENCINTAIMU

BETAPA AKU MENCINTAIMU
DENGAN SEPENUH HATIKU
BETAPA AKU MENYAYANGIMU
LEBIH DARI YANG KAU TAHU

INGINKU BAHAGIAKAN DIRIMU
SETIAP SAAT BERSAMAMU
SEPERTI JANJIKU KEPADAMU
TAKKAN PERNAHKU INGKARI

AKUKAN SELALU ADA DIDEKATMU
AKUKAN SELALU MENEMANI HARIMU
KAU HARUS TAHU
BETAPA AKU MENCINTAIMU

AKUKAN SELALU ADA DIDEKATMU
AKUKA SELALU MENEMANI HARIMU
KAU HARUS TAHU
BETAPA AKU MENCINTAIMU

AKUKAN SELALU ADA DIDEKATMU
AKUKAN SELALU MENEMANI HARIMU
KAU HARUS TAHU
BETAPA AKU MENCINTAIMU

BETAPA AKU MENCINTAIMU
WITH EVERYTHING INSIDE OF ME

11 April 2008

2008-04-11T11:02:00.002+08:00

UNGU
KEKASIH GELAPKU

KU MENCINTAIMU
LEBIH DARI APA PUN
MESKIPUN TIADA SATU ORANG PUN YANG TAHU
KU MENCINTAIMU SEDALAM-DALAM HATIKU
MESKIPUN ENGKAU HANYA KEKASIH GELAPKU

KU TAHU KU TAKKAN SELALU ADA UNTUKMU
DISAAT ENGKAU MERINDUKAN DIRIKU
KU TAHU KU TAKKAN BISA MEMBERIKANMU WAKTU
YANG PANJANG DALAM HIDUPKU

KU MENCINTAIMU
LEBIH DARI APA PUN
MESKIPUN TIADA SATU ORANG PUN YANG TAHU
KU MENCINTAIMU SEDALAM-DALAM HATIKU
MESKIPUN ENGKAU HANYA KEKASIH GELAPKU

Its Complicated (5th April 2008)

2008-04-05T22:07:00.002+08:00

Life and love is so complicated...Why izzit life and love so complicated?

Life and love is killing me softly...I don't know what to do..

23 February 2008

2008-02-23T17:00:00.002+08:00

Its the year 2008 already...

I haven't got a chance to update my blog...

Sorry Fathin...Aku nak update lah ni...

Today is my off day...

I took 2 days leave...to relief stress from work...

My job have become more worst than ever...

With all this stupid "Overall-In-charge" we call them SSU (Security Screening Unit) who don't know how to think using their brain...but instead they think using their butt...Fed-up...!!!!!!!

I want to quit this job by end of May or June...I dont know what job I want to try after this...Maybe its time to start schooling...I dont know...

I got no life with this job man...12 hours...2 morning...2 night...off-day is not really 2 days...its like 1 1/2 days...

I write until here first...I'll be back...chao...

6th December 2007

2007-12-06T18:25:00.000+08:00

Just came back from holiday at KL...

I went with my Aunt and Cousins...

We went to Sunway Lagoon...

It was really fun...

On the first day we played the wet side...

We took the slides...

And play in the water...

On the second day we played the dry side and also the wet side...

The dry side there's also one or two wet games...

First we get wet then we dry ourselves...

My Aunt and Cousins took the Roller Coaster ride...

I was too lazy to take the ride...

In the late afternoon we went to the wet side again...

On the third day is for us to depart back home...

Reach home at 2130...

Im just writing a summary of what we did...

If I were to write from A-Z whatever happens...

I think one day is not enough...

I'll write the full coverage if Im free next time...

Thats all folks....!!!!!!

16 November 2007

2007-11-16T15:12:00.000+08:00

I change my blog skin...

The previous one I can't seem to open the page...

Anyways alot has happen at work...

If I were to write everthing here until tomorrow morning will not finish...

But I will have to write this particular story here...

There's this guy from another team he said that he liked me...but I treat him as a friend because we just got to know each other like a few days ago...so we message each other...but this fews weeks back he didnt even message me at all...not even a Hi!...so I message him as per normal saying Hi, How are you? that kind of thing...his reply was like he was being force to reply my message...then I one day there's this ex-Charlie Budget Terminal girl being transfered to Terminal 1 came back to Budget Terminal Charlie Team...This guy that like me is from Alpha Team...Around last week I was in the bus and I saw this girl walking towards Budget Terminal...I just walked far behind her...Upon reaching Budget Terminal I saw the guy and this girl meet each other...I saw them and I just walked inside...There are people who warned me being friends with him...I have nothing against him as I only treat him as a friend...As long as I know my limits I dont have to worry...Now I heard that he and this girl going together...I'll just pray for their long relationship...But if ever their relationship being hit hard and he come crawling back to me I'll fuck him upside down...I just want to see how long their relationship...I feel that I being cheated...It hurts me...But I cant be bothered already...

I'll take my leave....

17 Septermber 2007

2007-09-18T00:37:00.000+08:00

Yesterday and today my deployment is with my best bud in Budget Terminal...

I'm so happy because once in a while I get deployment with her...

Now is my break time from 11pm-1am...

Can't sleep because break too early...

My Sgt looking at us...

Better ciao first before he comes...

Last Night FT Keyshia Cole

2007-09-08T20:06:00.001+08:00

22 July 2007

2007-07-22T19:28:00.000+08:00

Its been 1 month+ I've been working at Budget Terminal...

Its been fun...First few days was quite boring after quite sometimes it was okay...

I don't know whether I want to transfer to Terminal 1 or 2...

Budget Terminal is quite relax than Terminal 1 or 2...but I got to have the taste of working there...but I know quite a few people at Budget Terminal...Feel so sad to leave them...I think I just work at Budget don't need to transfer...

I dont know what else to write...Ciao...

2007-05-29T19:28:00.000+08:00

I've finish the first hurdle in today's test...

I managed to detect all items in the bag search...

Tomorrow is the scanning...

This is going to be tough...I can't miss more than two items...

For just now test, the tester was really bombarding me during the question answer...

I haven't even finish my sentence he already bombarding me...

I feel like f******* him off sia...

But I was lucky that during the bag search I got with another tester...

He wasn't that really tough on us...he knows that this is our first time...

But today the testers mood was okay...If their mood was not good we die...

But the funniest part was i detected an IED...so I called the tester and I was smiling as I've found the thing...he said that "You guys are so happy to find the thing and you smile some more."...there was another classmate of mine who was also doing the bag search she also started laughing...I asked the tester what if we really found a real IED on real ground...he didnt answer me...after I have finish the bag search then he told me that if everybody stay calm and not panic everything will be fine...but also we must protect other passengers...

I'm just waiting for tomorrow to finish...

We will be free from all this...

But also depend whether we pass or not...

I got a gut feeling that I will fail...

But I have yet to cross the other half of the hurdle...

Ya Allah,tolonglah hambamu ini untuk ujian keesokkan hari...terangkanlah hatiku ini Ya Allah...persenangkanlah ujianku esok...hanya padamu ku mengadu...Amin...

28 May 2007

2007-05-28T20:10:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow is the exam for the job I'm taking now...

I do feel regret taking up this job...

It's about people's life...

But I'm up to the challenge...

So stress right now...

I don't know what's going to happen tomorrow...

The rest of the things are okay for me...

But for the exam its a bit tough for me to handle...

If I want to get this job I have to be brave to cross any hurdle in front of me than I will know the capability and strength in me which I don't even realise having all that in me...

I should believe,trust and have confidence in myself to get this job...

Ya Allah,tolonglah hambamu ini untuk mendapatkan kerja ini...Hanya kepada engkaulah yang aku mengadu...Terangkanlah hati hambamu ini supaya hambamu ini boleh menghadapi peperiksaan esok...Terangkan juga hati kawan sedarjahku...Supaya mereka pun senang menghadapi peperiksaan esok...

I'll end here...

12 April 2007

2007-04-12T15:19:00.000+08:00

Its been long since I update my blog...

I have already quitted from my job at Diners Club...

I have already found a job under Aetos...

Its some sort like a police job...

My position is Security Screening Officer...

I have just finish my medical check-up...

So right now I'm waiting for their call for me to come down for training...

I'm so excited over this job...

Right now me just relaxing at home...

Sleeping late...Waking up late...

So syiok sia...hahaha...

I'll write until here first...

I'll continue when I have the time...

29 January 2007

2007-01-29T19:33:00.000+08:00

Feeling sian...................

Just dropping to update my blog...............

I'm caught with flu today suddenly...................

Really irritating...............

I really dont know what to write in this blog............

I think much should do..............

I want to add a song lyric..............

MUSE
"Supermassive Black Hole"

Oh baby dont you know I suffer?
Oh baby can you hear me moan?
You caught me under false pretenses
How long before you let me go?

You set my soul alight
You set my soul alight(You set my soul alight)
Glaciers melting in the dead of night
And the superstars sucked into the supermassive (You set my soul alight)
Glaciers melting in the dead of night
And the superstars sucked into the 'supermassive'

I thought I was a fool for no-one
Oh baby I'm a fool for you
You're the queen of the superficial
And how long before you tell the truth

You set my soul alight
You set my soul alight (You set my soul alight)
Glaciers melting in the dead of night
And the superstars sucked into the supermassive (You set my soul alight)
Glaciers melting in the dead of night
And the superstars sucked into the 'supermassive'

Supermassive black hole
Supermassive black hole
Supermassive black hole

Glaciers melting in the dead of night
And the superstars sucked into the supermassive
Glaciers melting in the dead of night
And the superstars sucked into the supermassive (You set my soul alight)

Glaciers melting in the dead of night
And the superstars sucked into the supermassive (You set my soul alight)
Glaciers melting in the dead of night
And the superstars sucked into the supermassive

Supermassive black hole
Supermassive black hole
Supermassive black hole

New Beginning......

2006-12-14T20:23:00.000+08:00

My new blog skin....

Its been long since I updated my blog....

Too busy with work and daily life.....

I've just bought a Digital Camera....

Super Nice Right........:o)

Nothing has been happening much in life lately only that my supervisor is going for maternity leave next week and i will be super stress...My work is not so stressful as hers...I pity my colleague that has to do her work...she's new and sometimes blur sotong(hahaha...sorry arh...just joking)...she fun to be with...very happening...the office now is like market...very noisy by her craps...hahaha...btw Singapore GST by next year has rise up to 7%...KENA SAI....!!!!

I've just turn 20 last 22 Nov...

My resolution after turning 20 is to take back my "N" levels by next year after that take my "O" levels then proceed to Poly...the previous plan was going back to full time school in ITE...its actually fine to do that...but i dont want to waste 4 years there...but im still thinking about this very hard so i wont make a wrong decision and regret later....

After I turn 20 i tend to be more quiet and more alone rather than being with other people...don't know why...find it very funny but true...but still being myself...thinking more maturely and wisely but still crapping around with the people around me as usual....hehehehe

i've came up with something today..."Unsure Romance is Forbidden"....

Sound harsh...but its cool...:o)

I'll end here....

OST "Heart"

2006-10-09T17:56:00.000+08:00

MY HEART
Acha Septriasa & Irwansyah

Disini kau dan aku
Terbiasa bersama
Menjalani kasih sayang
Bahagia kudenganmu

Pernahkah kau menguntai
Hari paling indahku
Ukir nama kita berdua
Disini surga kita

Bila kita mencintai yg lain
Mungkin kah hati ini akan tegar
Sebisa mungkin tak akan pernah
Sayang ku akan hilang

If u love somebody
Could we be this strong
I will fight to win
Our love will conquer all
Wouldn’t risk my love
Even just one night
Our love will stay in my heart
My heart

Pernahkah kau menguntai
Hari paling indahku
Ukir nama kita berdua
Disini surga kita

Bila kita mencintai yg lain
Mungkin kah hati ini akan tegar
Sebisa mungkin tak akan pernah
Sayang ku akan hilang

Bila kita mencintai yg lain
Mungkin kah hati ini akan tegar
Sebisa mungkin tak akan pernah
Sayang ku akan hilang

If u love somebody
Could we be this strong
I will fight to win
Our love will conquer all
Wouldn’t risk my love
Even just one night
Our love will stay in my heart
My heart

Sung By Hady Mirza (SI2)

2006-10-09T17:53:00.000+08:00

CHAKA KHAN
Through The Fire

I look in your eyes and I can see
We've loved so dangerously
You're not trusting your heart to anyone
You tell me you're gonna play it smart
We're through before we start
But I believe that we've only just begun
When it's this good, there's no saying no
I want you so, I'm ready to go

[Chorus:]
Through the fire
To the limit, to the wall
For a chance to be with you
I'd gladly risk it all
Through the fire
Through whatever, come what may
For a chance at loving you
I'd take it all the way
Right down to the wire
Even through the fire
I know you're afraid of what you feel
You still need time to heal
And I can help if you'll only let me try
You touch me and something in me knew
What I could have with you
Well I'm not ready to kiss that dream goodbye
When it's this sweet, there's no saying no
I need you so, I'm ready to go

[Chorus]
Through the test of time

[Chorus]
Through the fire, to the limit
Through the fire, through whatever
Through the fire, to the limit
Through the fire, through whatever

12 September 2006

2006-09-12T14:00:00.000+08:00

Been long since I update my blog.

Been busy lately with work and school.

This week I'm having my exams.

I've already finish three papers.

I still have three papers left.

Actually I should report to work to day but I was too tired to go.

Tomorrow I have to report to work.

Lately I have come up with a I dont know what should I call this:-

"When you have too much knowledge you forget yourself and you become arrogant...That is where you forgot what your heart desire"

My friend send me a message which I forgot how it sounded like. So it make me think about it for a while. And ta dah!!!...I came with this. I dont know where does it come from. Anyway this is just to share. Haha!!

I'm actually fed-up with my manager. Should I say her name? I think I should. Wendy Tok.

She's being so unreasonable. She cut off my internet and my colleague's internet. So now I'm working 8 hours straight without any entertainment. So I think that should make her happy enough. She cut off my colleague's internet because Wendy Tok saw her surfing the net and not doing her work. Wendy Tok is a cunning person. In front of you she act good but behind you anytime she can backstab you. Now I have to go out and surf the net. Now I dont wish to continue to work there anymore. Might as well I go some where else where the working environment is flexible. I mean internet is internet but work is work lah. But we are dealing with merchants, so we sometime need to surf the net to check out some stuff.

I think there is somebody who complaint to Wendy Tok and that makes her take the drastic decision. Should I say the person's name? I think I should, Perry Ler, IT Dept. This should make him happy also. What can I say. What I can say is that the management sucks. I'm quiting very soon. I can' t work in this kind of environment.

Dah lah gemuk, buatlah hal gemuk. Nak mengepo hal orang lain. Mata die kalau boleh aku nak korek.

Now I'm fed-up. The system is becoming worst each day.

I think I will end here. I got nothing else to say. Good Luck to myself for my exams!!!!!

What I dreamt on Thursday,3 August 2006

2006-08-04T16:58:00.000+08:00

Happy 19th Birthday to Firdaus.....!!!!

Study hard and get yourself a place in Polytechnic....

Stay happy alwayz.......;o)

Songs
To hear or write songs in your dream, indicates that you are looking at things from a spiritual viewpoint. Your future path is a happy one with good health and much wealth. Consider the words to the song that you are dreaming about for additional messages.

Roller Coaster
To dream that you are riding a roller coaster, signifies that you are experiencing erratic behavior brought on by yourself or a situation. You are experiencing frequent ups and downs in your waking life.

Fall
To dream that you fall and are not frightened, signifies that you will overcome your adversities(hardship) with ease.

Toilet
To see a toilet in your dream, symbolizes a release of emotions or getting rid of something in your life that is useless.

Vomiting
To see others vomiting in your dream, signifies false pretenses of people who try to take advantage of you.

Fruit
To see fruit in your dream, signifies a period of growth, abundance and financial gain. Fruits generally represents lust and sexuality.

Water
To see water in your dream, symbolizes your unconscious and your emotional state of mind. Water is the living essence of the psyche and the flow of life energy. It is also symbolic of spirituality, knowledge, healing and refreshment.

To see calm, clear water in your dream, signifies that you are in tune with your spirituality. It denotes serenity, peace of mind, and rejuvenation.

Werewolf
To see a werewolf in your dream, indicates that something in your life is not what it seems. It is symbolic of fear, repressed anger, and uncontrollable violence.

Building
To see a building in your dream, represents the self and the body. How high you are in the building indicates a rising level of understanding or awareness.

Gun
To see a gun in your dream , symbolizes aggression, anger, and potential danger. You may be dealing with issues of passiveness/aggressiveness and authority/dependence.

Stairs
To dream that you are walking up a flight of stairs, indicates that you are achieving a higher level of understanding. You are making progress into your spiritual/emotional/material journey. It also represents material and thoughts that are coming to the surface.

White
White represents purity, perfection, peace, innocence, dignity, cleanliness, awareness, and new beginnings. You may be experiencing a reawakening or have a fresh outlook on life.

Swing
To dream that you are swinging, suggests that you are going back and forth in some situation and need to make up your mind.

28 July 2006

2006-07-28T17:46:00.000+08:00

Happy 16th Birthday to my cousin Fathin.....!!!!!

Happy 17th Birthday to my brother Mahadhir......!!!!!

May you guyz have a wonderful year ahead...

Sorry this year no present...tight budget...hahax...

Been quite busy these 2 weeks since my colleague quit her job...Doing all the agreement that has to be done...I have finish until June...Now I'm doing July...I dont know when is this going to end...I'm tired of doing the agreement...Sickening...!!!...There's many steps to do the agreement...Very Leceh lorrrhhhh...Never mind lah...Job what...What to do got to do...

Anywayz....

Forgot something....

ITS FRIDAYYYYYYYY..........!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm dead tired but I want to go out...No thanks to myself...hahahax...

Its 6 o'clock....

Knocking off already....

Write some other time...

Have a wonderful weekends....

Enjoy them when there are still there...

Chao bubey....

Heartless Soul Found Love............

2006-07-06T17:05:00.002+08:00

OH MY GOSH.....!!!!

I HAD THE SHOCK OF MY LIFE.....!!!!

Yesterday, 5 July 2006, after work I was suppose to go to my friend's house at Pasir Ris as she got her key today...But before that I meet Fathin...

I was going down the stairs of the MRT and walking towards Whitesands...I saw this man was giving out flyers...I didnt know that it was someone whom I love 3 years before...I was really freaking shock upon seeing him...I walk really fast to Popular to meet my cousin...I told her that I saw him downstairs...I wasnt sure whether it was him or not...So we check it out...We went downstairs...We were about to see him then he walk away for a smoke...He got a name tag on his shirt...Fathin plan that she pretend to call me and walk pass him to see his name tag...But she couldnt see it...After he smoke he went to the lift...I wasnt there...Fathin was with her another two friends...He was opposite them...One of Fathin's friend saw his name tag...She only saw the first three letters...S A Z...So I confirm that its him...What really touch me is that he is still wearing the bracelet that I bought for him 3 years ago...But I still dont know is that the bracelet I bought for him...

After that we went to Jerk Thai thats where he work...Fathin and her friends were very kecohrable there...She told me to meet him...I wasnt ready for that...He was quite busy so I wish not to disturb him...After that one of Fathin's friend got to go back home...So left me,Fathin and her friend...We went to MacDonald...I treat them Milkshake...Around 840pm I go off to my friend's house...

I was so happy and about to cry when I saw him...Its been 3 years...I can't help thinking about yesterday's incident...

But what is still true is that I still love him and will never forget about him...Always in my heart...

2006-06-23T14:54:00.000+08:00

LETS CELEBRATE...!!!

ITS FRIDAYYYYYYYYYY!!!!

Gosh there are so many great movies coming up...example:- Scary Movie 4, Superman, Just My Luck etc...Got to watch...hehehe...

Anyways, actually I don't know what to write...As I've got nothing to share...Hahaha...

Just now, my last cousin called asking for my sister...She want to ask my sister whether she want to follow her go swimming with her...My sister agreed on going with her...

Last wednesday I went to her house...She's grown a bit fat...But still she's the cutest just like me...hahahaha...just joking...;o)

She and my sister are the last two people to grow up to become WOMAN OF OUR TIME...hehehe...

This weekend I dont know whether I want to go out or not...I ask my friend whether she can go out or not...She said that she's not sure of it yet...Its been a long time since I go out with her...

My brother's room has just been painted white...hahaha...My opinion NOT SO HIS KIND OF COLOUR...I prefer the blue and yellow combination...ITS SOOOOO HIM...!!!...My dad who painted his room...My brother didnt even help him...I know my brother...If he want to do it he will do it...If not dont even talk about doing it...He wouldnt do it...For the past two days he went out and left my dad alone to do his room...Make sure that my dad dont raked for what he did...He will always do that...And that makes us weak...I dont like this kind of people...If you want to it just do it and forget about it...Anyway its my dad idea to repaint my brother's room...He say that the colour is fading away...Of all colours white...Please lah its so oh common...My dad is like that so outdated...The same goes to my brother...

School reopens next Monday, 26 June 2006...So students get your butt back to school and study hard...

So I think thats it for now...If there's some more ideas...I'll share with you guyz...

Thats all folks...!!!...Come again soon...!!!

19 June 2006

2006-06-19T14:00:00.000+08:00

Hello...Hello...Hello...Peopleeeee!!!!...

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY YESTERDAY...!!!

Happy Father's Day to my father and to all father's in the world....

What a good Monday to start with...Hehehe...

Why am I always complaining that I'm tired?...

I mean everybody's tired...I'm not alone...

SO STOP COMPLAINING!!!...

Back to my weekend story...

Some BAD news and GOOD news...

The BAD news is that...I found out that Erra Fazira and Yusry KRU have been divorce on the 26 April 2006...I only found out yesterday...I was sad for the both of them...I hope that they can reconciled again and start afresh...I didnt know what's the cause of their break-up as they said its too personal...I'm really sad...

The GOOD news is that yesterday I went to Sentosa...It was fun...I don't know how to put this but I've been dreaming of going to Sentosa these past few weeks...Finally I got to go yesterday...Hahaha...They have made a huge change there...

I ride this so called the "Cable Car"...We just sit on this so called bench with our legs hanging and a safety pole or what is it called...I was really scared as it got higher...I can feel that my shoes can fall anytime or I can fall anytime...I was holding the safety pole very very tight that I think I can break the pole...I think at the centre of the ride I shouted to my dad and brother that "I REGRET RIDING THIS THING!!!"...I was about to cry because I was too scared...Just imagine you are at the top with nothing for you to cling on except the safety pole and there's nothing on top,right,left of you...I kept looking down and hold the safety pole...My cousin she told me to talk to her...I told her to shut up as I was really scared...My sister was okay...I think she was also quite scared...Upon reaching the end the attendance told me to open the safety pole...I didnt want to open the safety pole until my legs reach the ground...Hahaha...My dad and my brother was laughing at me...

Then we ride this so called "Go Cart" down the hill...That I wasnt scared because my feet is back on earth...I was going quite fast...But the first to finish is none other than my brother...He's the champion went comes to things that can be categorize as cars and motorcycles(he doesnt have any of those licence...hahaha...)...Second is me, third is my sister, fourth is my cousin, fifth my aunt, sixth is my dad, last of all my my mother's friend...

After that we went to the Musical Fountain...My brother,aunt and my mother's friend didnt come along as they were too tired and feeling sticky as it was very hot there...So they went back first...My dad,mum,sister,cousin and me went to the Musical Fountain...The show started at 740pm...I thought the show was going to be different but it was the same thing also...So I was not so entertain by the show...We went home straight after that...Reach home almost 1030pm...Had my bath then went to sleep...

What an enjoyable weekend only that on Saturday I didnt go out...As I was lazy and I my pocket already has a hole...Hahaha...I was relieve that I've already paid my exam fees...They didnt tell me that they increase the exam fees to $5 each paper so that means I'm taking 6 papers so it will cost me $270...I only had $240...So I told her that I'll pay next next week when I get my pay...Then when I was queuing up at 7-11 my mum message me that she's at Giant Bedok buying things...So then I thought that why not I borrow money from my mum first I'll pay her back later...So paid the whole sum finish...Haizzz....!!!

Thats all folks..!!Come Back Again!!..Hahahax...

9 June 2006

2006-06-09T16:43:00.000+08:00

IM DEAD TIRED!!!

CANT STAND IT ANYMORE!!!

MY PERIOD CAME YESTERDAY!!!

SO SHIT!!!

HAHAHA!!!

Too COOL things down...Just RELAX woman!!!

Back to NORMAL...!!!

Okay, to start things of let me have a quiz with you guyz...

As you guyz now that in the alphabets there are 26 alphabets right?...Correct!

As I have put below you guyz think of any word that will total up to 100%..

Hint: The word is very important in our daily life.
Example: SUCCESS - 19+21+3+3+5+19+19=89%

A B C D E F G H I J K L M N O P Q R S T U V W X Y Z
1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26

Try It Out!!..Interesting!!

This week nothing much that I do..Normal daily life..Monday to Friday working days...Saturday and Sunday relax days...I was sick last tuesday..Caught a flu until now its still not okay..But better...

Last monday my school called my up and said that the examination registration is already on and the closing date is next Saturday...I was quite shocked..I mean like you should called me up earlier..I mean what if Im really short of money or im overseas or something..Tham I can balme them saying that you didnt inform me earlier about this thing...They should at least call me 1 month earlier so i can prepare the money and everything...Dont take advantage that for the time being now im not having any classes that you can have the excuse of not informing me earlier...But luckily I have put aside some money...Haiz!!

Yesterday I watch movie with fathin..We watched "Cars"..it was quite a good show..for me i dont laugh that a lot and neither did the rest of the people in the cinema..but it was a good show afterall...

ITS FRIDAY FINALLY....!!!!!!!

WAITING FOR THIS DAY TO COME....!!!

AND IT FINALLY CAME...!!!

HAHAHAHAHA!!!

ENJOY YOUR WEEKENDS...!!!

19 May 2006

2006-05-19T17:24:00.000+08:00

its been a quite fast week for me...maybe after the holidays last week...

i bought a new spectacles last week...just now the shop called me that the spectacles is ready for collection...the other day they said it will take 2 weeks because my degree is too high...im so happy to get a new spectacles..

tomorrow first thing im going to the bank to cash out my cheque...then im going to bugis to collect my spectacles...after that im going to check out on MP3...my MP3 is so sickening...i dont know what to with it...just now in the morning while walking to my office then i change to my Replay file...then the sound never come out...when i try repairing it the i dont know what to called it maybe its the socket got to stick out a little bit...but when i switch to my music file it can play without any problem...i think im gonna buy a new MP3...the volume button both are spoilt...im using an earpiece that have a volume control...luckily the record button is still functioning...for the radio file is also like that...i got to stick out the so called socket a little bit...so frustrating...after that maybe catch a movie...not confirm yet...or maybe just go back home and rest...

kak lina never come for two days...dont know what happen to her...hope she's fine...im quite worried...she's pregnent im worried...haiz...!!!

im going to sembawang after work today...im gonna buy Pussy Cat Dolls CD...their songs are quite different from the other girl band groups...

and this is for kak mas...hahaha...you have been very good mood these few days...only for today and yesterday...because kak lina never come...hahaha...but so far you're okay...hehehe...

okaylah got to go back home...stay cool and funky always...;o)

17 May 2006

2006-05-17T13:13:00.000+08:00

its been long since i update my blog..

today one of my collegue's last day...Gd Luck to you Jill..

actually this blog is for my cousin fathin..she's been complaining that ive not been updating my blog..hehehe..

anywayz my life is as usual..monday to friday working days..saturday and sunday relax days..haha..ive not been in touch with the surroundings lately..but i did go out on the last holidays..

friday i went out with my old friend..we went to orchard..we reach there we just walk around..then we felt bored just walking around..so i told her why not we watch movie..she agreed..so we watch "Mission Impossible: 3"..it was a great show..i dont know why some of my friends dont like watching that movie..some told me that they are not interested in Tom Cruise..but its no harm watching the movie..but in any case its up to the individual itself..

saturday i went to UOB Bank to cash out my cheque..then i went to my school to take my results..i failed Human Resource and Public Relations..i was quite dissapointed..but its okay..i can try again in the upcoming exam..my mum asked me to buy some food at "Inspirasi Stall" at Bedok Interchange..

sunday is Mother's Day..Happy Mother's Day to all mothers..i thought i wanted to give a treat to my mum..i thought of going "Masayu" at Siglap..but then later my aunt called she wanted to bring my grandmother,my mum and my siblings to Swensens..my mum agreed..my dad was working..so then later he came back from work..so he also followed..after that we went back home..

so thats my update on the last weekend..i write again some other time..

2 May 2006

2006-05-02T13:33:00.000+08:00

What a long holiday...

Yesterday was May Day...

Sunday night I went to "syarahan" with my mum and sister at Jurong East. We reach home at almost 12 midnight. While in the MRT my mum saw my primary school friend. Actually I didnt know until my mum told me. Its been 2years plus since I saw her. She's married and divorce. Still got a lot to catch up with her. I've been searching for her for quite a long time. She's now working at Banquet at Haig Road opposite City Plaza.

Monday I wanted to deposit my money then the deposit machine is spoil. So can't deposit my money. I return back the DVD that I borrowed the other day and borrowed another two DVD. Then I bought my rabbit's food at the Pet's Lovers Centre. The whole day I was watching tv except after 8pm. I teach my sister for a while as she have english and malay paper 1. Then my friend called at around 1215pm. We talked until almost 2am. Planned to talk for 15 minutes but the more we talk the more interesting things we found out about each other. So thats why we extended our phone call.

Today I woke up at 555am. I thought I wanted to wake up at 615am but remembered that my brother start school today after three weeks of holidays. So wake up for the sake of my brother. Inside the bus I slept until Lavender MRT than I woke up. Today Kak Lina on leave. I'm still sleepy until now. Going back to my work. Adious!!!!

28 April 2006

2006-04-28T16:41:00.000+08:00

Its Friday...!!!

Have a long weekend for this week and next week.

This week is May Day and next week is Vesak Day.

Not sure what to do during the long weekend. Tomorrow I'm going to watch my colleague's sister dance at Bugis from 3-6pm. But before that I'm going to UOB bank to cash out my cheque as I got my pay yesterday. Yesterday, I forgot to bring back my handphone. I left my handphone on my desk. Then when I check on my desk this morning it was not there. I was quite worried. I keep my thinking that my friend took it and keep it for me. Luckily it was true if not I don't know what to say. Anyway thanks to my friend. ;o)

What I Dreamt.................27 April 2006

2006-04-27T13:02:00.000+08:00

Top
To dream that you are on top, signifies your aspirations and ideals. You are seeking higher understanding and knowledge.

Hole
To see a hole in the ground, denotes hidden aspects of your activities.On the other hand, it may mean that you are feeling hollow or empty inside.

People
To see people you don't know in your dream, denotes hidden aspects of yourself that you need to confront.

Stairs
To dream that you are walking up a flight of stairs, indicates that youare achieving a higher level of understanding. You are making progress into your spiritual/emotional/material journey. It also represents material and thoughts that are coming to the surface.

Elevator
To dream that you are ascending in an elevator, signifies that you willquickly rise to status and wealth. You may have risen to a higher levelof consciousness and are looking at the world from an elevated viewpoint.

Train
To dream that you are on a train, is symbolic of your life's journey and suggests that you are on the right track in life and headed for theright direction. Alternatively, you have a tendency to worry needlessly over a situation that will prove to work out in the end.

Brother
To see your brother in your dream, may symbolize some aspect of your relationship with him. It can also serve to remind you that someone in your waking life has certain characteristics/behavior similar to your brother's.

Wallet
To see a wallet in your dream, symbolizes financial resources or self-identification.

Smoking
To dream that you are smoking, indicates that you are trying to shield yourself and others against your emotions. You have trouble letting others in.

Classmates
To see old classmates in your dream, indicates that you need to draw onyour old associations with your former classmates to gain insight in some current relationship. It represents a past lesson that you have learned and is applicable in some aspect of your waking life now.

Money
To dream about giving money away, is analogous to giving love. You arelooking for love. To see others giving money away, suggests that you are feeling ignored or neglected. Someone is not paying enough attention and showing enough affection toward you.

Pants
To see or wear pants in your dream, suggests that you are questioning your role in some situation. Consider the material and color of the pants for additional interpretation.

26 April 2006

2006-04-26T09:01:00.000+08:00

Today is Nur Najiyah's 16th birthday!!!

I wish her Happy Birthday!!!May all her wishes come true and pass her 'N' Level exam which is end of this year...Then enjoy her three months holidays...

I woke up late today at 640...Usually wake up at 6...Maybe too sleepy...But I'm the champion because 640 I woke up and I manage to go out the usual time I usually go out to work which is at 715...Thats not all champion but champion of all champion...Hehehe...I reach work as usual...Bought macaroni from makcik downstairs...Actually I ate two pieces of nugget before going out...But still hungry so buy some food...Going to get back to work...

25 April 2006

2006-04-25T16:55:00.000+08:00

Having problems with my blog...just renew my new blog and change my blog address...I feel at ease now...Still sticking with My Chemical Romance's skin...Hehehehe...They are the best...Their first single Helena just blew me away...There's one time I was down...After hearing that song just perks me up and in the same way releasing my stress...I did feel quite relieve after that...But hearing just songs is not enough...You still need to do something with your inside...The inside you must cure first before you can show a good outside...If your inside is gloomy it really reflects on the outside...So be careful not to hurt your inside...